Brick Walls

I like to think I am patient...but in reality I am probably the least patient person when it comes to certain things. I like to think I can make a decision, but once again I probably am one of the most indecisive people I know. Yet, when I do make a decision there is about zero percent chance that anybody or anything can change it, stubborn I mean I'd say so. haha Needless to say, this week I literally hit a brick wall that told me I need to learn humility. Then I also hit the brick wall that said; figure out next semester classes, what career to do, how am I going to pay for anything, and then holy crap holidays are around the corner!

More than anything I hit my brick wall of fear, then I came along this talk. There were literally three fears I had-->"Fear of the future, fear of failure, fear of not knowing what they can become. In the gospel of Jesus Christ, fear is the opposite of faith. If you have fear faith diminishes, but if you have faith, fear diminishes." Goodness I needed this talk. I am moving forward with taking classes that interest me even if I'm not sure that is what I want to do. I am moving forward with faith and grasping more on to my Savior. I am not perfect and it is going to be really hard to move forward...but I have to because blessings are waiting for me.

There is still my brick wall of patience that I need to overcome. Little sis knew exactly what I needed and she sent me this...and I just love her.

My Princess...

WAIT ON ME

Wait on Me, My princess. My timing is always perfect. I know you're anxious about many things, and I see your passion for all the plans I have put in your heart. I know that you long to fly, and I see your enthusiasm. However, just as a vine-dresser nurtures the vine and waits patiently for the right moment to harvest the grapes, so too am I working tirelessly to prepare you to bear much fruit. Don't run ahead of me or try to fly before my plans are complete. Your strength will fail you, and your dreams will wither away. Trust me that my dreams for you are far greater than you can dream on your own. You will run farther and soar higher if you will patiently wait for the season of my blessing. Draw close to me now, and I promise that this season of waiting will bring you the sweetest of rewards.

Love,

Your King and Lord of perfect timings

Sorry for the vent sesh...#thisismyjournal. I know that I can do hard things, I know that all will be well. I know that if I humble my self and ask for help from my Father in Heaven; that I will have patience, that I will be strong, and that in the end all will make sense.

On a brighter note: Cheers to family night tomorrow as well, it is very much so needed! H E L L O November which means---->Traditions, family, goodies, fire places, hot cocco, snow, and season of thankfulness, giving, and love! I can't wait for the memories.